And the future of this blog...
Is it okay to say I don't know where this blog is going? That I had a clear direction- food and running- and... well... now I'm not exactly passionate about either?
I was talking to my friend Meredith today about blogging and how I thought she should start one. Her immediate question was:
Who would read it?
I told her that you don't start a blog for people to read it. You do it for yourself.
I later was talking to Gretchen (the girl who is responsible for me starting this blog to begin with) about that and she said that's not always the case. Which I guess is also true.
If you blog, you most likely love getting feedback in the form of comments or emails. You're probably also a little narcissistic. That's not a bad thing- it's just probably the truth. You're proud of something- so you write about it... for the world to see it.
In a way that's what I used to do with the meals I made and the races I ran.
But as you know, my world changed. I had a baby. And I went back to work fulltime. So the idea of spending all this time and energy cooking just doesn't interest me anymore. I'd much rather be spending the the time with my son... watching him start to scoot across the floor... watching him take two toys and bang them together like it's the best thing in the world. Listening to him laugh...
I still cook but our meals are more about convenience and speed rather then creative, seasonal recipes that I used to love so much. I think everyone is looking for quick meals so I will try to continue my QFM (Quick Fix Meals) Series. But I just don't know how often I'll do that...
But the running. I'm not sure what to say about it except to say I'm not doing it. And, I don't miss it. Yep, it's true! It's safe to say running was a huge part of my life for about 15 years. But even though I ran pretty consistently, I wouldn't say I ever loved it. I loved the feeling I got when I finished a long run, or ran a tough speed workout... but somewhere along the lines, my passion dwindled. I say this to my friends and family a lot, but I do think I'm inherently lazy. I'm not nor have I ever been, the type of person who craves working out. My college roommate Lindsay and my running partner Nancy (who at 3 months post-partum already runs at least a half marathon every weekend) need it in their daily life. I want to love running again and I want to crave working out... but with where I'm at in my life, it's taken a huge back seat.
So I guess this post is just simply asking you guys to bear with me while I figure out what I want this space to be...
I'll try to show up here a little more often with recipes. And hopefully, someday, I'll actually run again.
In the meantime, I started Project 365 - and I'm hoping to take a picture of something cool everyday of the year (not just of my baby- even though I think he's pretty cool and fabulous). I also am obsessed with Instagram and I still blog on my baby blog. Both of those are private though...
Oh, two more things...
1. Is this the saddest thing you've ever heard?
Recall on my absolute favorite baby item! My suggestion- wash the damn thing! You know I'll still be using it!
2. Is Friday Night Lights the best show ever? I started watching it on my iPhone during my commute. It's making commuting a lot easier! Clear Eyes, Full Heart: CAN'T LOSE.
So that's it, for now. Thanks for letting me ramble. I'm sure I'll be back....
